Summertime Sadness

      As a person who has had bouts of Seasonal Affective Disorder, it seems uncommon that I would have issues with depressive symptoms during the summertime, but I do. It is not a product of lack of sunlight so much as other contributing factors. I recall recently that I lose sleep and cannot get to sleep because…brace yourself…I am too happy. I find no reason to shut my eyes because I don’t want to miss out on the awesome time I am having merely living life to it’s fullest. Happiness or not a lack of sleep has horrible results. I have also picked up my bad habit of forgetting to eat. Most notably I have been in desperate need of quench my thirst but with little to no success. I can’t stand any drink anymore. I’ve picked up the horrible habit of comparing myself to others, mind you I sincerely believe that comparison is the devil. I want the best for so many people but I have a horrible habit of wishing I had the luck that others have in regards to having jobs and significant others. I wish I were as lucky, but it can’t be helped in the end.
It’s best to focus on what I can do, what I do have and what I need to change to correct the problems I have in life. Namely, I may always have depression, regardless of the seasons, but that does not mean I have to be victim to it every single day of my life. I’d prefer to counter it with a great sleep hygiene and perhaps set up reminders for food consumption. I should count my blessings more and ignore the comparison between myself and anyone else. For it is through comparison that I retreat into myself and fail. I will live the best life I can possibly live and fight back against this persistent summertime sadness.

Summertime Sadness

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