The symbol

I don’t know if I ever told anybody about this or if anybody knows about it at all. I figure I’ll write a post about it and be done with it.
So this is the symbol I’m referring to:
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It is a symbol I made for myself, to represent myself, not dissimilar to Prince’s symbol. It is comprised of a heart, an eighth note and two C’s facing each other. Colour choice is white and light purple. Simply put each choice that creates this symbol is representative of who I am and/or what I like. I made it a long time ago and it has found a nice home on this blog.
And so now you know.

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The symbol

My Cell Phone Case

My days have become completely shrouded in work, through no fault of my own. However it’s a bit draining so I’m going to take a small break to write about some lighter subject matter: My Cell Phone.

My cell phone is a Samsung 6 curve, not the one that explodes. It is black and serviced by Bell. I also have a black enclosure wallet around it that carries my bank card, bus pass, ICBC card and Starbucks card.
I’ve decorated my cell phone case with a pink sakura flower, the words “Dream Big, Work Hard” and a sticker from Kerli’s sticker pack on the back. On the inside it says my name in Japanese on the top and the word “Hope” in kanji. This was all done by buying felt pens that can write on fabric or other materials.
In addition to the writing there are charms attached to my phone. On the clasp that closes the phone case there is a dog tag charm that says Hope. Attached to the side of the phone is a Link, Navi, musical note and Laito phone charm.
Partially I feel it is unnecessary to explain the importance of each charm. But to explain myself I’ll give a brief summary of each charm. The inclusion of Link alludes to a time when I was in post secondary where I felt like I couldn’t do anything right, until I came home and played Legend of Zelda. Link and I were a team and remembering all those hard fought battles reminds me that I can accomplish a lot more than I realize. Navi reminds me of this time too but she is also a guide in the game and provides me a metaphorical guiding light in life if ever I feel lost.
The musical note is a synecdoche for the whole of music and everything it means to me. In this case I’d like to say less is more and music means a lot. I will similarly be short with Laito, who is just another anime husbando that I fancy.
Hope you enjoyed this lighter weblog. See you next week!

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My Cell Phone Case

My Reverse CV

I once heard of the idea of collecting past failures and putting it into it’s own CV. If that were the case my experiences would be vast. I have come across many “almosts” and plenty of “could have been”. I don’t look especially impressive on paper (although that has changed as of late) but if I wrote about my “reverse” CV I could write an epic.
Where to begin? Well I can say that I have extensive knowledge in serving and being in the kitchen. My kitchen knowledge is limited but I have worked around the kitchen and done tasks near it. Although my skill level in the kitchen is much greater. I can cook and take care of myself and the kitchen area on my own. However if this CV is focused on past experiences on the job I must admit my expertise in the kitchen is limited. On the contrary my skills as a server are more extensive. I’ve served at many different locations at varying lengths of time. I can clean tables, serve food, memorize table numbers and set tables.
I have also had experience at a grocery store check out. It was a brief stint but it involved employing my math skills as well as operating a till effectively. I was in charge as well as memorizing various codes on different items and lastly counting the amount of money in the till at the end of the day. This was a step above when I volunteered in a thrift shop and did similar mathematical tasks.
In addition to the mathematical skills I acquired at the thrift shop I also gained experience in sales. I learned the skill of talking up items to make them more appealing as well as perfecting the presentation of items.
I have experience with clients who are both old and young alike. Older people enjoy conversation and younger people enjoy conversing and play. Because of this I have also gained skills in drawing and colouring for the joys of younger people.
This has been my reverse CV to the best of my knowledge currently. I hope to gain even more knowledge that may become completely unimportant to my actual CV.

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My Reverse CV

My Winter Break

aka I just want to sleep & Death is inevitable and it is a very slow process.
If you asked me how my winter break was I would respond, “not as restful as I would have liked.”
In past breaks I spent it regaining all of the sleep that I missed by being in school, but this time I didn’t get nearly enough sleep. My family came in December: Four older brothers, a sister in law and two nephews as well as my sister in law’s brother and sister. It was busy.
I admit I didn’t spend as much time with everyone as I probably should. But I did spend a lot of time with my nephews. For their gift I brought them to Bright Nights in Stanley Park with their mum. I think it was enjoyable and a very good choice. Aside from hanging out with my nephews and their mother I tried to stay in my room. My mum was very bad with this and kept trying to wake me up and get me to spend time with everyone. I hated this though. I find the energy of the family very exhausting and I have never felt more of an introvert as when it comes to hanging out with my family. It’s too difficult and I would rather be alone trying to sleep if I can’t sleep.
Nothing to of note for presents, gifts were definitely geared towards the nephews. They got a lot of presents and a Santa prank was set up (footprints in the snow in our living room) just for the little ones. I hope it was enjoyable for everyone even though I was less than impressed. The Christmas feeling has come few and far between as I’ve gotten older which is a shame.
The last week of 2016 was spent in Florida. I took three planes to get there and three planes to get back. I went there with my mum and it was less a vacation as it was a visit to help my grandfather out. It was a very difficult trip for me. My grandmother had passed away in October and I couldn’t make it to the funeral because of work so I went to see grandpa in December instead.
I miss my grandmother endlessly, and it hurts to think about how my grandfather is feeling about it all. I think his solution is best: forgetting it all. He has slight dementia and so it is rare he thinks anything is drastically different. Sometimes he still calls out to her. He also has horrible arthritis and can barely walk. The highlight of his day is mum and I taking him out to breakfast. He spends the rest of the day watching television. It is horribly dull there and it feels like time stands still. I disliked a lot of it after Wednesday. I figure three days is a good visit, but we were set to be there for ten. Friday (my grandfather’s 98th birthday) horrified me because it was the first time I witnessed my grandfather go through Sundowner’s Syndrome. He kept wanting to go home. Thinking of that day reminds me of everything I felt there. I was overwhelmingly stressed; my chest compressed. I didn’t know exactly how to describe how I felt but I just knew that crying would not be a bad idea. It may or may not have been my first contact with reality. Death is inevitable and it is a very slow process. I knew for the entire time that being there was an investment in my future self, and although my present self was suffering horribly I would have to be strong. I dream and look forward to the days when I could easily distract myself with k-pop, j-rock, k-dramas and the like. My break from reality could not come soon enough.
We arrived despite delays on every flight. We came home by taxi at 5 in the morning. And I barely got a few winks before work at 6:30. But I survived it all and look forward to 2017. Maybe next blog I’ll write about my resolutions? I’m still finalizing them. I am also doing a new year’s eve re-do this Friday because the one in Florida was utterly boring and was more a dress rehearsal than anything. I’m looking forward to it!
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My Winter Break